Guest
2010-05-31

Mike Fazenbaker
Hi my love. I miss you so very much I wish I could talk to you and hold you in my arms. They have sold everything that was yours.. your car, your bike, and now your house. I hate her for what she has done to your memory. It is so hard to live without you. I want to be with you but for some reason I am left alone. Everyday a part of me dies a little more. I wish I could have fulfilled the promise I made to you but I thought we would have the rest of our lives together. I miss you so very much. This is the only place I can talk to you. No one cares about mre and I am so lost and alone without you. I love you with all my heart and miss you more than you know.

Diann Mottiqua
2010-04-08

Im still waiting for my son to come home!
My son Chad was killed Dec 8 by a drunkdriver at 512, he was 23 years old. My life is full of pain and sadness. Its 415 am another sleepless nite. But then theres days i stay in bed forever. My life , my21 year old daughters life , his dads life and my whole family has beenn broken hearted from his death. He was my world the reason i lived and nothing feels rite anymore. Somedays its just to much. I think ive gone a lil mad.

Tim Moran
2010-03-29

Birthday
Tuesday March 30th would have been my son Steven's 30th birthday. But there will be no cake, no candles, no party, no teasing him about becoming an "old man". There will only be more wondering, what if? And more questions, and the pain will rear its ugly head again. It's never far away. I have said that the pain and the grief is like a bulldozer that is right behind me everywhere I go, waiting for me to slip or fall. Then it will run me over, crushing me. So I try not to look over my shoulder, and I try to stay ahead of it. But it is always there. Sometimes I get tired trying to outrun it, but I keep on trying. I do it for my wife, who I love very much, and I wouldn't be where I am today without her. And I do it for my sons Michael and Jonathan, that I love very much, and my grand daughters that keep my spirit alive. When I am with them, they remind me of my children's toddler years and it lifts me up. And I do need that. I need them all. Without them this hill would be too tall....... Happy Birthday Steven. I love you. I always have. I always will...........Dad

Tim Moran
2010-01-17

This pain knows no limits
Today is January 17th. It was 17 months ago today I got the call that forever changed my life. My youngest son, Steven was gone. He was 28 years old. I think about him every moment I am awake. And those moments are plentiful. Sleep is a rare gift anymore. The hurt just does not get any easier to deal with. Sometimes anger takes over. How could God take him from me? And why does he need him more than I do? I have made an uncomfortable peace with God. I try not to question, but sometimes it is hard not to. Steven will always be my baby boy. I will never stop loving him. I miss you Tweezers!

Tim Moran
2009-12-29

Another Christmas Without Steven
This was our second Christmas without Steven, and it hasn't gotten any easier. The pain and emptiness is just as strong as it was the day we lost him. Sometimes it is almost too much to bare. I miss him so much it actually hurts. It has been 17 months and it still feels like it was yesterday. I feel like I may never crawl out of this dark hole I am in, but I am trying, for the rest of my family. It has been hard on all of us. We all loved Steven very much. And we all miss him terribly....

Guest
2009-11-01

Mary to Mike Fazenbaker
I never got the chance to say good bye. I loved you so much and always will. There isn't anyone who could ever take your place. I still remember your laugh, your smile, and that litle twinkle in your eye. You were my rock, my soul mate, the love of my life. How I miss you!!!! Halloween was never my favorite time but it became special because it is your birthday. Happy birthday my love , I MISS YOU!!!!

Ethansmom
2009-10-09

Fall . . .
this was our favorite time of year! I loved taking Ethan outside for walks and watching him play in the leaves. We got dressed up and had our pictures taken for Halloween it was fantastic - just thinking about it makes me smile and cry! This time of year is VERY hard for me - I'm trying to get into the spirit of things - but it just isn't the same without him here. I miss him terribly!! I believe Ethan has been at the house alot lately thou . . . his toy puppy keeps barking . . . I think he's trying to tell me that its okay to enjoy this time of year with Cydney too and that he's still with us. I'm still so sad . . .

Guest
2009-10-09

Chris Harris
I just wanted to say that GOD has another angel with Chris Harris! He is truely missed! God Bless you Chris. The world has lost a wonderful man. RIP Chris Harris

Ethansmom
2009-07-06

Little things . . .
That others take for granite seem to be sticking out like sore thumbs to me lately.

I can't ever imagine pulling up outside the daycare and letting my child get out of the car and run inside without hugging him/her and telling them I love them. Without taking the time to walk inside and tell the teacher what has been going on and the 2 of us comparing notes on how things are going. But I did . . .

Now I see it every morning - mom's that are running late or are just to lazy or that just take for granite that they'll see their child later and they'll hug them or tell tell they love them "later."

I want to go up to them and to tell them - "please don't do that!! Don't put off all of those "little things" - Don't put yourself in a position that I did - don't have 1 of your last memories be that you let him run off so eager to play and you ran out the door without saying "I love you Buggy and him saying I love you mommy"

WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE TO GET THAT MORNING BACK!! THAT 1 CHANCE TO HEAR HIM SAY "I LOVE YOU MOMMY!!" JUST 1 MORE TIME!!

I don't want to scare those other parents - I just want them to appreciate EVERY SINGLE MINUTE OF EVERY SINGLE DAY!! I don't want them to ever feel the heartache I feel everyday. I want them to learn from my mistake! Tell your children you love them EVERY CHANCE YOU GET!! No matter how old they are or how embarrassed they get - don't put yourself in the position to wish you'd have taken that few seconds to say it!

Ethan - Mommy Loves You!

Guest
2009-06-17

Lost contact with friends mom
My dear and best friend passed due to a DUI driver in TX in 1996. Kept in touch with his mom from up the hill from Green Garden PLaza... Lost contact after few yrs. I googled his name and found his name in memory on the Our Children Wall... if she on here or anyone knows who I speak of, please let her know she always been in my prayers and I miss him deeply still and hurt for her..Dereck your always missed even after 13 long years of not having you in my life...